Baroque

To spread or not to spread is the question
There is a certain delight
To disseminate the palpitation
The throbbing ache at the lump near the throat
Through nothing but words
Jotted hastily on the pulpit of my dream.

Perhaps I should remain silent,
Perhaps I should make an attempt
To bear all my agony and deprivation
With a little more grace and propriety.

I will stay here alone
In this gutter of endless reverie
Waiting to crawl beneath the earth
My solitary self,
I am so divested that all I can miss
Is the solitude of days bygone.

Legerdemain

Sometimes I feel like believing in God.

Sometimes it dawns upon me
That it would have been better
If I could believe that
The universe is planning and conspiring
Everything with me in mind.

Sometimes I feel the urge to be grateful
To have this gift of being here
In this very moment
Under this very sky
To have the last glimpse of this ethereal glory.

I wish I could forget
I am but an ephemeron
A wink in the breadth of eternity
A fortuitous fruit of an abysmal randomness.

I am here at last
Before they devour you, my mother
Just to witness the sigh about to befall
And the dark night consume the last shimmer;

I am here at last
The final beholder of doom
To hold my breath on the precipice of the end.

Endymion, revisited

I walked along the millions and myself

Only to return through this desolate street

The heartbreak hotels lying by my road

The dusty horizon, tantalizing, evading, remaining still

The stillness, oppressively cold

The darkness creeping into the world like a secret pact.

I would survive all these:

Like a Midwestern nightmare

It will all be over.

The hollow meadow would perish into citylights

The lonesome road would merge into the citystreet

Bustling with joy and vivacity.

I will put on the smiling mask again

To march on the tune of the band

Of being happy, and prosperous.

Farewell for autumn

Let us not pretend

The world will stop

With our silent departure

Through nooks and crannies of days bygone.

 

Let us not pretend

When our eyes will meet again

Amid the ocean of strangers

In the oblivious heart of a cosmopolis

You will recognize me and smile.

 

Both you know and I

That the last Goodbye

Remains silent, falling like a crimson leaf of the fall.

Our words and memories

Dying away like your receding footfall.

The chirping sparrows will fly away now for warmth

And I

Will stand beneath this maple wood

Until the last leaf has fallen

Like my wistful heart.

Apotheosis

Here I stand
At the end of the world
Waiting for the final bell to toll.

I do not see the man hiding beneath the façade
I do not growl for the loss of an era bygone
I do not excavate another passé idea
Of love and heartbreak, of self, of nature
And everything eternal.

I will take the hemlock on offer
But I will not go on a rant
I pledge not to make a sound anymore
And I will close my eyes,
Slowly as if not to create a ripple
Though the ether.

Nothingness is the only Constance

Everything else is but a surreal reverie
Waiting to be wished away.

Aphorism

I see the world, glorious and gray
Immured inside my fist
Imploring to my benevolence
Praying to be released.
And I
Looking down upon the magnanimity
With a cruel smirk hovering by my lip
Say, NO.

There is no resolution left to be taken.
No cause left to be defended.
No soul was left to have mercy upon them.

There emanates, but, a solipsistic chant
Sounding like a groan
Uncertain if effusing from pleasure or pain.

Apocryphal

There’s a space around me
A distance growing vast.
In the depth of my solitude
There lay the pleasure and pain
The follower and followed
The embodiment of future.

You and I will give birth to
Our solitary world
We will abandon
What is simple and true
And recourse to a life
Of illusory dreams and magical colors.

All that is left for us
Is silence and solitude
And a few hours in between.